When I don't want the night to End..

    It's been really tough for me to manage things for the past few months. Everything seems to be going against me, except for one or two. The happiness of that success didn't last for long though, because of the rest of the things going against me. I am happy that it's all coming to an end soon. I will soon be home. But this mental torment just a week before the end of everything, is what is not expected. From a few days, I keep waiting for the day to end, so that I can be home. Once I was home, I did not want the night to end, so that I need not face the morning which visits with so many 'I did not want this' moments. I do not even feel like sleeping because it feels like the morning is soon there, in the very next minute. I keep encouraging myself, saying that I should get back brave and face everything. But with everything against me and everybody against me, it's really getting tough. I try to convince people explaining everything and requesting them to understand my situation. But the weird thing is, no one seems to understand. The reasons they give, are just blunt and improper. This is what is cheesing me off. I don't find at least one crazy answer to why people are not interested in helping, when they actually can, except for the one that they can't help being selfish. Until a few weeks ago, the phrase 'Like I care' really helped me in facing difficult situations and people. I made a post on this phrase too, but somehow, it's not going to make it's place on the blog. I use this phrase with lots of attitude, and it makes me feel really 'like i care'. Till now, am the one experiencing the anguish. And I feel like that's going to make me strong. I realized it just today, when I talked to someone very strong about what I want to do. And said that it is what I will do, whatever it takes. May be I should behave just the way people do. Looks like, they can understand things only that way. I think all this helps me get strong, but I cannot take this stress. I am hoping that everything will be sorted out soon.